I'm terrified.
Constantly terrified of failure. I feel so crazy sometimes. I'm so obsessed with this possible future...this career...that everything else blurs into the background. I wonder about my difficulty to interact normally at work. I'm comfortable with any social situation that doesn't pertain to my profession. When it does, I suddenly become introverted and only want to bury my head in my projects. Which I suppose isn't necessarily a bad thing...but it's becoming increasingly hard for me to carry out a normal conversation. All of a sudden my words feel forced, unsure... frightened! I am so intimidated by these people! I can do it! I know I can! >_< But I'm so fucking scared! I need some balls! WTF, kid!?!? ::punches self:: If you have a spare pair, please donate it to the "Kina-needs-to-stop-being-a-damn-pansy-ass" Fund.
Listening: MGMT - Kids
yay! my happy song! >=O
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