cigarettes are bad

too bad they cost less than food out here. bah. after finals hopefully i'll be able to satisfy the hunger rather than curb it.

another shoot today. this one is more thought out. i'm excited. tired. but really fucking excited. i have 2 more themes to shoot. ..maybe 1 if i can figure a way to work yesterday's shoot. i want this to finish. badly. not so much because of the fatigue and lack of sleep..but for the first time i really want to see the finished product come together. ok. game on. time to smoke a dragon stick.

MAS!

another shoot today, another tomorrow. i feel good. today is beautiful. if i can sustain this feeling for another week it'd be amazing. then i can crash and sleep the bad parts away. XD yar yar..sleep it all away. O_o hurray for escapism! ^_^

DEATH ROSES RAH RAH RAHHH

I had a good shoot today! Yay! (lol i just heard someone from my roommate's room fart in their sleep. it's either her or her friend...::giggles::)

Here's a fun one...kinda rough, kinda unedited, kinda not, but super cute in my opinion.













Models: Jenny Ma and Ping
MUA: Sovanmolika Son
Special Thanks: J. Espinoza + Christine

Butts butts butts, I totally had fun freezing everyone else's off. Thankfully, mine was immune. Hurray for too much booty in the pants!! I need to find someone comfortable with posing in their underwear as well as choose which of these I'll use for my final. =_= Mao. Back to work =_=;.

//edit grrr...for some reason the image is heavily desaturated when i upload the web version. =_=

oh yeah! here's one for alison's shoot =O

OK

So pretty frenchie pants is a flaker. Am I frustrated? Yep. However, my shoot with Brigid went well and hopefully I'll be able to use her for my Wednesday Loc Lighting class. It's a toss-up between her and Ron. *sigh sigh* He's so pretty! Today may go well, or it might be fucked. So far EVERYTHING is up in the air. I haven't been able to get in contact with my model to confirm...and I dont have a *sure* mode of transportation. Fuck me in the balls, eh? Oh well. Let's see how this goes.

inspired. and without quarters.

Animal Cannibal!

I was so inspired last night to be creative that I did 2 things. I contacted an old friend to see if she wanted to work together on shoots again...and I had a homework party with Jepp (Jeff). I can speak positively for both of those actions. I'll be assisting for a shoot this Sunday, and I plowed through a shit load of editing! And it was quite a load, sirs. Quite a load. After I finished, Jepp started playing the guitar and taught me 2 new songs. =D I get so excited when I learn something new! My eyes literally look like this "<>_<>" whenever I'm interested in something. He's a pretty good teacher! I think I'll bug him for more lessons this summer. =((( While he's still in Cali! Oh well. He's pretty neat. I'm glad we finally started hanging out. Yung and their other roommates are pretty wee-filled as well.

Today, I have a shoot with a girl named Lucie. She's pretty hot. And it's not necessarily her face that makes this so. (Though she does have a nice one.) But it's more of her attitude and that crazy french accent of hers. HOT! =T We have a correspondence through a few emails going on... =T but I don't think she really understands what I need. Perhaps I need to learn French and destroy the language barrier. >_< Oh well. I hope this turns out to be a good shoot. I'm following it up with another one right after, and another one after work tomorrow. I still need to figure out transportation! UGHHHH. Hopefully things won't suck between me and Josh...if not..x_x ugh...I don't really know how I'm gonna get my models to the location.

Oh yeah. My current situation...I fell asleep at Jeff's place. And I only have 25 cents. Normally I would just walk home from wherever I crashed...but this time I'm pretty fuckin far. I misplaced my flying magic carpet. So I'm n all sorts of suck.

AAU Fashion Show

This was my first time to attend an AAU fashion show...and I have to say..the designs were...AMAZING. I feel so fucking inspired. I can't wait for my next shoot. Though I've never worked with a few of these girls, I'm excited and hope we have a good chemistry.

posting lotion

Yeah! I finished half of my digital printing final yesterday! And I'm really proud of the images and concepts. I can't wait to start editing these poopies. But they'll have to wait a bit. I have a shoot today for Allison (SP) and then studio time tonight. I'm not sure if I'll need it or be able to use it...but we'll see! I'm glad Yayao is here. She's an egotistical butt face, but she's calmed me down quite a bit. And I'm finally starting to feel kind of OK...or at least understand why I feel the way I do. Sigh sigh. What have I done? Opening this door to emotions and shit. How terribly annoying to have to accept truths. It's so much more pleasant to smile and laugh and pretend everything is going to be OK. Because in my pretense, I start to believe it. I start to hope. Ugh. Oh well. Here it is. Here I am. A silly bag of flesh with ooey gooey feelings. Sigh sigh. At least I have my camera.

yeah.

I miss my fucking friend.

..But i can't help but feel stupid for doing so.

Fuck.

ARGH!

~_~ whatever.

On another note...i have a shoot tomorrow.  Two possibly.  Maybe even 3 if I get in contact with this girl.  I heard she's a flaker...but she's so cute! So I hope that's not true.  Yaz is coming out to Cali for a week!  I'm excited.  I'll have someone to calm me back down and help me with my finals.  Yep.  I already warned her it wasn't going to be a fun site-seeing trip if she visited me around this time, but she seemed eager to get out of Jersey and work on stuff with me.  So again, I am excited.

we did scars today in makeup class.  i <3 Harry Potter

Finals.

ErfFff.  So I'm writing my artist proposal for one of my finals, and instead of wholeheartedly concentrating on it, I am creating a blog where I can vent about my frustrations with it.  My problem with this thing is the fact that someone has to actually read it and pull forth a solid idea.  Which means my shit has to make sense.  Fuck.  Sadly, the last time I wrote a comprehensive paper was 6 years ago.  Since then I've successfully completed a few thoughts here and there...sometimes aloud, sometimes on paper, sometimes in my sleep.  I'm a very witty person in my dreams. 

Heh.

Fuck, man.  I'm reading what I have written so far and I keep coming off as a crazy person.  All i know how to do is rant.  And even *that* is rare nowadays.  

I need to start casting for this project.  I have a bunch of shoots lined up.  But most of them are just for fun, or to help others with their assignments.  Wait, scratch that...they're all for fun and most are for other people's assignments.

At least I got to shoot for that Gloss guy.  He likes me and is interested in getting me jobs with Gloss.  ::laughs:: naked gay men it's almost perfect ;D.

mRraahhh I'm eating a chocolate covered spicy mango.  amazing.

ok, seriously, kid.  Stop procrastinating!